Quick side note: I don't think enough people use the "Water Cooler" forum sections.
As many of you know I've been working on Zodiak Legends and the rest of the Zodiak Universe for some time now but it has had to take a back seat to my full time 9-5 job. When I started Zodiak I had recently lost my job and I wanted something to keep my mind off how depressing and stressful my situation was. I made so many advancements and even got to the final product in less then a year because I was completely focused on getting my game to the masses. Clearly Zodiak is not out yet and my work ethic has been seriously lacking.
I started working full time in July of 2012 and since then I only get a few hours every weekend to work on it (if my girlfriend isn't home, and I don't have chores, or I'm not podcasting for my gaming site, or I'm not traveling). I like being able to support myself and have nice things but I hate my job and I hate myself for not having more time to finish what I've started.
Yesterday I met a guy who worked right nextdoor as a financial attorney making about 6 figures a year and he gave it all up to follow his passion and open a smoked salmon business! I aked him why he would do that and he said "I didn't want to be a lawyer all my life so I left and I never looked back". That leap that he made is something I dan't know if I can follow. Sure I was unemployed before but that's because my boss let me go and he was actually a crazy person so I didn't have much of a choise. Now I find myself weighing my options and thinking about what's best. I live with my girlfriend and I have a cat, if I quit it woulnd't just effect me it would effect them as well and I don't think I could do that to them. We are currently behind on all our bills, both mine and my girl friend's student loans are breathing down our necks, we live a long way from our families, and we have zero savings so I really don't have many options but to keep looking down at my shoes and shuffle on even if it makes me miserable.
Weighing the pros and cons:
Cons: I won't be able to afford food, pay bills, I'll put unnessessary hardship on my family, and we'll eventually be thrown out onto the streets.
Pros: I'll be following my dreams and I'll be doing something for myself. I'll be poor and stressed out over finances but I think I'll have a healthier out look on life and maybe a happier soul.
I really don't know what the right thing to do is. I know I need to keep food on the table but it has become a struggle to come in every day. My boss and our higher ups and other people outside my office who work for the company are so miserable and spiteful it's painful. I actually had to have a meeting with our growth manager because I disagreed with another manager's opinion about something trivial like wether or not to have a pizza party (not joking).
Are there jobs out there that I can use my imagination and stretch the muscles of my mind? I want to work the table top game design or at least in a place that embraces creativity but does such a place exist for people who only have some college experience?
Also before anyone suggests it I can't go back to college because I have zero co-signers, I have $40,000 of student loan debt I'm trying to pay off and my credit score is 530.
So what do you guys think? Where are you all with this in your own lives?
I wish I could easily be debt fre but I pay as much as I can when I can. Truth is when you live on your it's much harder to pay anythign extra. Doing the math I'll be in debt for the next 12 years